One dailymiler posted this morning that he does not understand the attraction to running distances greater than a marathon. I think some 5k and 10k champions probably feel the same way about us marathoners. For me it is about deciding to do something and seeing it through.
Will I finish? I really don't know. But I'm not worried about it. When the race director says "GO!" I shall trek as far as my heart, mind, legs and stomach will allow. If I cross the hundredth mile great. Should I fell somewhere short of the goal, its still OK. I will certainly be disappointed.
There will be no heartache though. For too many times in my life I failed to start, fearful of failure. Now I accept failure as a potential outcome. I am resigned to "good enough" being good enough.
An online friend posted last week that "good enough" is akin to giving in. This time I don't think so. This time is about seeing how far I can go, how much I can achieve, how great I am capable.
The alternative to "good enough" is never even trying. So regardless of the outcome I will reflect upon that weekend in April and say "yup, I lined up and put my ass in the fire". Its not about ego. Its not about being better than "you". Its about becoming better than me.