I have worried about a lot of bullshit in my life. I have made many self-destructive decisions in my life. What I can say with the utmost certainty is that I am a victim of my own inability to control my urges and impulses.
Codependency has been will me all my life. I suspect - rather, I believe - codependency will be will me for the remainder of my life. Only now I have a label and I have an understanding and I have tools to respond to the behavioral patterns that previously guided me.
I may or may not use this space to write about my struggles with coming to terms with codependency. Like other forms of addiction, you never beat it. You can only deal with it. You can only keep it a bay.
Should have any questions, ask. If you come with hate or bullshit, I will cut you. Deep.
Best wishes. After reading the entry at Wikipedia, I believe I am in that bucket too.
ReplyDeleteI understand you so well. I have been co-dependent in my relationships and I think I still am. I think it's a good thing to know, even if it's a label, but it's a start.
ReplyDeleteThanks for opening up in such a personal issue :)